Faith – such a magical 5 letter word, one that can keep you in drama or lift you to soar higher.
We all are a work in progress in discovering Faith in God. I had to fully believe God does not exist in order to find my own experience – a constant work in progress. I had to first drop all my preconceived notions about God that I learned from parents and society, before I could discover what that is in me. I had to stand in the unknown until a whisper of the grandness touched me.
The touch of faith is an unmistakable energy, a swift answer to a great suffering and a self validating knowing within.
It is the miracles in my life
It is the silent untouchable part that I touch in the greatest openness
It is the deep knowing in my total surrender
It is a sweet touch of energy, I call divine.
I seem to have it for periods and then I lose it.
Feeling cut off
Grabbing on to people and things in the futile attempt to build my self confidence.
Just another distraction from what is truth…
With faith, the need for validation ceases
With faith the need for survival fears dims
The fear of losing my job, money, relationships simply comes to a rest
With faith I can accept differences in others
With faith I step out of ego battle
With faith I let another be angry at me without getting into a battle.
With faith I realize the shadows within me with an open heart
With faith I can move through great loss
With faith I know I am really nothing in the grand scheme of things
My arrogance ebbs, leaving the crystal clarity I can’t control people or situations out of fear. I can only manifest powerful change from a place of great surrender – I know nothing.
My soul helps me to not forget the journey I came here to take
My virtues improve with each mistake I own, each injustice I stand up to lovingly, with each fear I release.
The journey of discovering who we are is not to be covered under some pretty veils
It is heart breaking, until we let go of our fears to make room for greater love.
It is losing everything we think we need, until we return all our energy back to the single pointed focus – what are we running away from?
May the journey be peaceful, gentle and loving.
Does Corporate America Discriminate?
I love America and the foundation based on equality. I believe this foundation need to extend to our personal lives and professional lives. Questions such as – ‘Do we treat others as our equal, instead of being “better than” or “less than”’- are very important for our own evolution to higher levels.
In my own contemplation of equality I observed Corporate America has a few areas where improvement is needed:
· There is a difference in a way a manager speaks to his subordinate Vs how he speaks to his peers/superiors.
· There is a difference in how people treat Contract employees Vs Full Time Employees
· There is a difference in how IT and Business groups treat each other, often a lack of harmony is observed.
· There is a difference in how a man treats a woman in a leadership role Vs another man in the same role
After years of witnessing it, being part of it and then gaining awareness to step out of it, I found the root cause of this discrimination:
FEAR
· Low self esteem - hence depending on a job title to feel worthy.
· Feeling the need to put people down to prove ones superiority.
· Having the belief that being a high performer means job security or is a prerequisite to being loved and appreciated.
· Allowing another to walk all over one to affirm a limiting belief set in early childhood.
Pushing another never works. We need to own the responsibility of identifying where the communication is broken and aim to resolve it without the blame game, and without the need to be right.
Our sense of self cannot come from anything outside of us. Our self worth automatically comes from a solid sense of virtues built through dedicated self work of seeing and releasing fears.
In my quest to emotional wellness, I had to let go of acting from the place of ‘looking good’, and instead start acting from a place of ‘what is the right thing to do?’.
The key question to ask is ‘What is the truth I am resisting to see?’.
Keep asking this question through the day and before going to bed. Asking the questions allows the unconscious mind (right brain) to reveal the hidden fears to the conscious mind (left brain). Once the fear is revealed, we can have a dialogue with our unconscious mind (through our non dominant hand) on how unproductive limiting thoughts are and gently guide it to let go of the fear.
For more information on communication with the unconscious mind, contact me at explore@mayavidhya.com
I believe Harmony and Team Work is the result of emotional wellness within us.
Easy Ways of Making a Difference to The Planet
I have made a list of ways we can help the planet that is easy and effortless.
Pick one a day and implement. Watch the increase in your happiness meter!
1. Bless the planet and creation when you wake up. Pray for the well being of all.
2. Do not participate in any human drama or gossip today.
3. When you see a homeless person on the street, ask the angelic kingdom to surround them. Give money if you can.
4. Stop your silent criticism of weather, co-workers, family and traffic by mentally saying CANCEL CANCEL CANCEL.
5. Give someone the benefit of doubt.
6. When you catch yourself wanting to be right, stop and be flexible.
7. Eat more Organic veggies today
8. Help 1 person in a way that is easy and effortless
9. Think of a fear and pray for its release. You can also say “God take this fear (name it) back to the light as I am ready to stop manifesting it in my life. Thank you God for this. So be it.”
10. Make eye contact with people you avoid, and SMILE.
11. Ask the janitor in your office how their day was, and stop to listen.
12. During discussions, listen fully without planning your response.
13. When faced with a problem, stop the knee jerk reaction to blame, instead ask the question “What is the lesson for me here?”.
14. Let go of the need for approval, manipulation and pushiness.
15. Be sincere in your praise. Don’t say anything you don’t believe to be true.
16. Be truthful and admit your mistake at work and at home.
17. When you desire to inflate yourself, stop and appreciate the weather, the president, or the person in front of you.
18. When you believe you have the answer on how another should act, stop and own your arrogance. Admit to yourself you know nothing that is in another person’s reality.
19. Avoid coffee, cigarette and alcohol today.
20. Write a letter to your senator, congressman or President to request a change to improve the planet.
21. Before going to bed, say 3 things you are grateful for.
Fear is what pushes people out of the way to be the rock star of the moment
Fear is the silent energy that results in addictions and depression
Fear prevents us from knowing our inner strength
Fear puts the lid on creativity.
Fear loves to be the victim
Fear is the aggressor who thinks the world is a battle field.
Fear is the way we avoid accepting the truth of the moment
Fear is what drives a relationship apart in the quest to be right
Fear is the culprit when a parent forgets to take the responsibility of parenting
Fear is when corporate politics cloud productivity and compassion ceases
Why do we let the fear fester?
The ego self would have its walls crumble to admit the degree of fear within
Maybe the ego will realize how wrong it has been all the while
and know the pedestal it sits on is a protective mechanism
When the personality discovers the fears, it may run, or weave a sophisticated lie
To cover the fear
Either way, the truth is
Fear prevents us from knowing the grandest experience of all – God
I believe human beings will be far happier if they accepted the truth – we are a work in progress at everything!
I was a perfectionist, until I realized I lacked self-love. In every area of my life I am working on releasing some belief that is limiting to embrace more unlimitedness.
I later contemplated on how society will be if we allowed everyone to be a work in progress?
1. The leader of the country will be more willing to be a student everyday on the job. Suggestions for improvements will be received without defense.
2. The CEO can make decisions from a place of empathy and compassion alongside brilliant direction.
3. The mother will be a positive influence on her children when she admits her mistakes.
4. The partners will be able to forgive themselves for not meeting a commitment.
5. There will be more people helping the poor and needy, as they stop the judgments.
6. War will reduce as people have tolerance towards difference in points of view.
7. There will be more emotional intimacy and connection between humans as they can admit their mistake without shame or guilt. They stop reacting negatively to people and blame stops.
Here are some points for contemplation:
· Our parents are a work in progress. They may not be the ones who can show us what unconditional love is.
· Our partners are a work in progress. They are students of emotional wellbeing too.
· Our leaders are a work in progress. They are mastering virtues like the rest of us.
We need to make the shift within us, before the world gets it. We are all learning to love more, live more, and embrace truth more.
When we give another a break, we give our self a break.
When we give our self a break, we stop proving anything to the world.
We can rest, and improvise from a place of OKness.
We are happy.
Differences are not fun when we are insecure
and trying to build our self-love by having another agree with our views in
order to feel good within.
Differences lead to conflicts at work where blaming the other for having a
different view point is sometimes the norm.
Differences in relationship result in breakup.
Differences between countries result in war.
Why do we have differences amongst us?
All humans are students on the path of life, expanding their ability to hold
grace under pressure, expanding their ability to love without conditions,
expanding their wisdom though life experiences without judgments.
Our idea of what is ‘our truth’ changes with time and experience. We have
different point of view at different stages in our life.
Our viewpoint on anything may be a result of:
1. Our denial of the inner feelings the real truth may bring up
2. Our need to feel superior by our adherence to a religious/political view
point
3. Our inability to break free from the view point of our parents, society or
authority figures
4. Our wisdom gained from experiences as of that point in our life
When there are so many dependencies on ones opinion on anything in life, how
can we expect the rest of the world to have our chain of thought?
Having a different view point is our birth right. We all need the freedom to
believe what is right for us, until we decide to make a change.
That right comes with being in a free country and being an adult.
So, is it not an act of ignorance to not allow another to have a difference in
the way thy think, act, dress, eat, pray and live their life?
When faced with difference, we can continue to speak our truth without
demanding the other to accept to our point of view.
Peace within us is a result of accepting those negative aspects within
ourselves we have a difference of opinion with what we project to the world. We
cannot change what we don't accept within us.
Peace in our outside reality is allowing difference in everyone we interact
with. We may not desire another person’s way of being, however we can allow
another person to experience the choices they have until they decide to change
it on their own.
From Narcissism to Empathy
Here are a few definitions for Narcissism:
· A
doctrine that individual self-interest is the actual motive of all conscious
action,
· Excessive
concern for oneself , exaggerated feelings of self-importance,
· Belief
ones thoughts/actions is superior,
· Deep
insecurity resulting in an addictive need for being appreciated and thought of
as special.
· A
consistent demand to be given a higher reward for work done.
· A
sense of entitlement. The inability to deal with life’s challenges due to the
belief ‘it is not supposed to happen to me’.
I would never have believed I was narcissistic until my
beloved spiritual teacher lovingly pointed out the behaviors of narcissistic
people. Lo and behold I found I shared the traits of a narcissistic individual.
I am generous and loving, and would not have caught the subtle energies of
narcissism that dominated my actions as a teen and adult.
Now that I have experienced narcissism, I can share how
it impacted me and how to heal from this emotion.
How did narcissism impact my life?
· I
was unhappy for the best part of my early life due to my need to inflate myself
and ‘prove’ myself to another through work and other accomplishments. The day
was filled with the desire to be one step above another. That is a lonely place
to be.
· I
was not able to find a job for a long time as I believed most jobs were ‘below’
my intelligence.
· I
could not have open hearted friendship as I was unable to have emotional
intimacy with another. I attracted narcissistic people in my life. Like
attracts like.
What makes a narcissist?
1.
Emotional needs being neglected as a child.
2.
Being raised up by a narcissist, whose
emotional needs were ignored when they were a child.
Hence the root cause is not something one can control as
a child; however it can be healed as an adult. This is what allows one to have
sympathy for narcissism. Do not judge a person by their actions now, try to
understand the root cause and then take action to help the person be complete
with that lesson.
Remember, a narcissistic person is more insecure that
you are, hence you can have more compassion.
How can you help a narcissistic personality heal emotionally?
1.
Pay attention to their feeling and let them
know you are empathetic. Do this from a place of open heart. Avoid being phony.
2.
Help the other know the equality in
creation. Discuss the law of karma – what you put out, comes back. Not having
the emotional needs taken care of a child is also karmic in nature. It is our
job, as an adult, to parent the inner child within us so we have the emotional
healing needed.
3.
Define good boundaries and make sure your
needs are clearly articulated. Take care of yourself and let the narcissistic
personality know you matter. This step has to be lovingly done for it to not incur
further division. This will help the narcissistic personality slowly wake up to
start listening to another’s needs.
4.
In severe cases I recommend therapy or
spiritual teaching from an advanced Emotional Healer. I recommend Dr. Carley J.
Henius (www.EmotionalHealer.com)
5.
I recommend the following books:
a.
Feelings Buried Alive Never Die by Karol
Truman
b.
Emotional Resilience by David Viscott
c.
The Emotionally Abused Woman by Beverly
Engel
Simple steps lead to phenomenal results, when led with
patience and love.
I believe the grandest happiness in our human evolution
depends on our mastery of virtues and having a sound value system.
I grew up with the belief money was of the highest
value. I associated my power to the amount of money I owned and the job title I
held.
Life has a way of balancing everything when one is
passionate about self mastery – the mastery of fears and limited beliefs which
keep us in the Hamster wheel of momentary highs followed by a low.
I finally got it after years of contemplation, I found I
am in a happier place in life when I master virtues, and in order to do that,
my value system needed an overhaul!
I
had to stop valuing something that comes and goes and has a short life span.
This included money, looks, job title, and approval from others! There is
nothing wrong about being affluent or having a great job, however it does not
define who I am! My relationship with everything material became more
fulfilling when I had a good foundation on virtues.
I had to find out what values help me to be in a
consistent state of OKness, with
consistent evolution to greater happiness each day.
When I value faith and patience, I no longer need quick
gratification. This avoids a whole lot of stimulants in the form of food,
gossip and meaningless television entertainment.
When I value equality and see everyone as my equal, I
find people treat me as their equal. The low income worker, my subordinate at
work, the homeless man on the street are all my equal. Each one is experiencing
the lessons they need to master, which is between them and God – I am not their
judge and jury!
When I value humility, I am at peace. I now have
realized I really know nothing in the scheme of all things.
The values and virtues in our life is what give us the
ability to master any life threatening challenges from a place of emotional maturity and grace. This
is when we have the power to be the solution.
An Invitation To Stop Worshiping Your Spiritual Teacher
I am from India where putting teachers on a pedestal and
worshiping them is the norm. I grew up thinking this is ok, as I believed that
teacher has the power of the Supreme Creator and she/he is divinely blessed by
the Creator.
As I grew up and emotional maturation started blooming,
which is a work in process, I realized there was something wrong with this
picture. Everyone on the spiritual path gets abilities to see Unseen Beings,
channel other great teachers from many realms, heal another, and to predict the
future. This has nothing to do with emotional maturity. No matter what powers a teacher exhibits, the
teacher is a student, alongside being a teacher, until they master all earth lessons and have
ascension. If the teacher allows
worshiping and encourages it, it is about their low self-esteem and an
invitation for them to do the work of emotional healing.
As the powers were given to me, I did take a few
missteps and my ego got in the way. I later realized, the powers given to channel great
teachers and divine beings can be easily misused by the unhealed unconscious
mind of the teacher. I wanted to be placed on a pedestal at one point due to my
insecurity and deluded myself for a short time. Wisdom came with experience,
and now I know no matter what powers are given to me, in my path of living in
truth and releasing my fears, I will always be a student even as I teach, and I
really know nothing in the scheme of all things.
A good teacher is one who helps the students stop
worshiping anything materially or not, and leads them back to the Creator
within them – a work in process for all of us.
Take a moment to use discernment before you worship
another human being. Not worshiping anything is a health way to be. You will
have greater devotion for the Creator and all of mankind when you can see God
in everyone. We are all a divine work in progress and every teacher has flaws
they are learning to overcome. Take what
is true in every teaching and leave the rest.
Openhearted Communication - Allowing all to be who they are, including self
We are all
students at mastering loving communication. We are all evolving to a state of
peace and wholeness within the self, by mastering our fears and limited
beliefs. Here are some points I found
helpful towards having an openhearted communication at work and at home.
1. Open to
being wrong and willing to learn from anyone, irrespective of age, job title,
spiritual affiliations or any other differences.
2. Loving
our imperfections allows us to easily accept another person’s limitations.
Allow imperfections in self, while consciously working on releasing fears and
limiting beliefs every day.
3. Speaking
our truth in a nonjudgmental manner, in spite our fears and insecurities, while
allowing another the full freedom to reject our ideas.
4. Accepting
other person’s insecurities and allowing their evolution to wholeness in their
own time. Avoid emphasizing another person’s shortcomings, as that reflects our
insecurity.
5. Allowing
projection by others by mentally saying ‘I am going to hold the space for you
to hear yourself, so you can heal the aspect that thinks the problem lies
outside of yourself’.
6. Having
awareness of our projections onto others, by paying attention to the denial of
our own shadows or limiting beliefs.
Conscious
practice of steps 1 through 6 allows us to know when to be firm and when to
yield, all done with an even tone arising from a place of zero or less fear.
Sessions available to release fears and limiting beliefs.
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My Miracle in 2010: To Know God Heard Me AT My Time Of Need
I have had some great challenges since last November 2009, which
included losing my home, leaving my child behind and moving to another state to
be taken care of by my brother, health challenges since Jan 8th requiring 2
hospital stays, besides not having the financial resources to start my own
living. This was new to me as I was financially very independent and earned well for
the last 10 years. I had a lesson to master here.
I cried to God and my spiritual teacher to give me a miracle as the medical
bills were huge and I had no means of paying it.
This morning when I woke up, I asked God and my teachers with great passion, to
give me a BIG success.
Within a couple of hours Yuma Medical Hospital called me and said they are
waiving the $15,000 I owed them!
A few weeks back Providence Medical Hospital Washington also waived the $15000
I owe them, again after I asked God and my teacher for a BIG success.
God gave me $30,000 and now I KNOW God hears me when earlier I was doubtful
about it to some degree. My faith is a
work in process and the more I see God in everyone, fully knowing each one is
evolving at the speed that is right for them, I can accept the world without
criticisms. The world is a caring loving place and there are wonderful people
out there. I just had to open my eyes to see them.
In order for me to change my reality to a one far better than what I had created, I had to say:
-No to Drama.
-No to Pessimism.
-No to Criticism.
-No to believing the past will repeat itself, knowing if I
do believe it, I will create it by the power of my thoughts and emotions
-No to blaming others for my creation, by not taking a chance, not learning new skills or not leaving a relationship when it was time.
And say
-Yes. I am a student and I am working on my
unconscious fears, every day. I will
set aside 1 hour every day, no matter how late or how early it is, for my
emotional well being and my happiness. Now I know what gives me true happiness,
it comes from within me when I am know I can change my reality to one I like,
by releasing all self-sabotaging programs every day.
-Yes. What I see in another person, that I don’t like,
is a lesson for me to see the same repressed shadow within me, or to learn
virtues like acceptance and unconditional love.
-Yes. I am going to get to know the Supreme
Creator one step at a time. God will reveal God at the level I can
handle without misinterpretation by my unconscious fears.
Love,
Maya
I have offered the powerful
technique of
releasing fears in my book The
Power of Illusion.
I
found the 3 gifts that make me happy are: Happy Health, Happy Wealth and Happy Love.
It word Happy changed my definition of health, wealth and love to something deeper
and stronger enriching my life beyond measure.
Happy Health
The
world is seeking good health and I did that too, for many years, and in that
journey I discovered the recipe that works for me.
Happy
Health results from 3 key points:
1. Handling our unresolved
emotional healing so we do not impact our physical body with the hidden stress
and sabotage our physical well being. Humans need a way to deal with unresolved
emotions. It can be drugs, food, sex, work, exercise and even spiritual
practices, which can all get out of balance if used as a method to feed unresolved
emotions held in the body and mind. Have a practice to write to the fear aspect
within and understand the purpose for having it, re-educate it and release it
from within the unconscious mind. I have offered the powerful technique of
releasing fears in my book The Power of Illusion.
2. Changing old Neural networks
that program the body to like a certain type of non healthy diet, and embrace a
higher way of energizing our sacred body. A good way to change a pattern is to
do a fast with Organic raw vegetable juice freshly prepared for at least 7
days, so the system is cleansed to a great degree. With this fresh start, start
the new healthy eating without gluten, sugar and/or dairy. Each one’s body is
unique and you will know your ideal food intake following conscious eating. You
will find it easier to stick to a permanent program if toxins are released from
the body. I have also observed the need for 30 days of deep self discipline to
change a behavior. Visualizing a healthy lifestyle, see yourself get
passionate about running a race or feeling light in the body. Do this exercise for at least 1
hour every morning, with eyes closed. This will help create new Neural Networks
in the brain. The more the visualization is done, along with releasing fears
daily, the thicker the neural pathway and quicker the manifestation.
3. Happy Health is a process and
not a onetime fix. As we make small changes every day, the more toxins are
released and we gain more strength and vigor in the body as the liver does not have
to struggle to release the toxins. The body gets into its natural detox
mechanism in the process of taking pure nutrition without pesticides and
hidden toxins.
Happy
Wealth
Happy
Wealth is a state that we arrive to when we are not led by money and material;
we are led by the joy of experiencing good things in life from a place of self
contentment with the knowing of who we are. We stop seeking wealth and we start
seeking Truth within us. The truth that cleanses us of all hidden negative
shadows like arrogance, lack of self worth, jealousy, envy, competitiveness and
anything that sabotages happiness.
When
we have the tenacity to not give up in life, and the courage to face any
challenge God gives us, we have a strong core within us that has greater power than
money in the bank. We are complete and nothing external can feed our needs in
an unhealthy manner. We enjoy all material from a place of great joy and
gratitude without being hooked on to it.
Money
comes and we share it with all who is needy and keep the continuous flow of
money - received in gratitude and given in generosity. This is a place of Happy Wealth. A place of
knowing I am worthy to desire God’s gifts and my value system is grounded in my
truth, loving God, loving my shadows and loving humanity and all creations through
eyes of equality
Happy
Love
A
love radiating from the truth within, not tainted by neediness or hidden agenda
is Happy Love.
It
is a good idea to take the time to discover who we are without a crowd
affirming what they want us to be. In that process of deep self discovery, we
get to release what does not serve our highest and embrace virtues. Isn’t life
finally about mastering virtues? Challenges teach virtues
like patience, tenacity, love, courage and faith. I have found my happiness to
be causeless and untainted by apparent physical limitations, when my virtues
are strong. God’s messages are clear to me in this state as my fears no longer not
block or alter divine messages. Every
few seconds of communicating with the Creator fills my heart with love. A love
that is causeless and loves ALL with zero judgments. A love that does not care
if the person Maya loses her money or job, but moves with a higher purpose to
have justice and serve the needy. That causeless love is a Happy Love, my heart
is open and love gently resides without fear.
I wish you great joy in
discovering Happy Health, Happy Wealth and Happy Love
It was easy for me to desire great spiritual
enlightenment and oneness with all of creation. However, taking the steps that
can lead to it was a challenge. In order for consciousness to evolve to a
higher state, we need to take stock of the current situation and ask the
question why enlightenment has not happened yet. Is it fears and limited
beliefs that is preventing us from being in a constant state of happiness?
We cannot live from a state of the highest wellbeing, when our unconscious mind
is cluttered with fears. Our limited beliefs will alter truth and make it a “convenient
truth”! Our devotion to what is really true, at the risk of losing all that we
hold as valuable, is what can allow our Truth to shine without alterations by
the unconscious mind. Remember, the unconscious mind can prevent revelation of hidden
fears out of self preservation. Truth
does not preserve anything other than Truth.
I love the cycles the ego sometimes takes until greater awareness resides
permanently.
1.
The ego meets a challenge
2.
It may give up thinking it can’t succeed
OR
it tries to do it expecting
instant results.
3.
When success does not come after
repetitive attempts, the personality may give up thinking it does not work!
4.
The next challenge arrives and back on
the cycle, this time with a lessened resolve to face life’s challenges.
The ego/personality may forget to have an honest
reflection on failures.
·
Maybe the lesson was to see a core
limiting pattern and release it.
·
Maybe the lesson was to master virtues
like tenacity, patience, courage.
·
Maybe the delay was a karmic learning,
until good deeds fills up the positive karma bank.
In scientific researches to identify new solution
to medical conditions, the scientists work on many samples of data and study
all the effects, sometime spanning a few years, before they can claim a new product
works. Science does not work on instant results, unless you want a product that
has not been tested well.
The student of life, the computer engineer or spiritual healer forgets this
principle of Active Waiting.
Actively working on the project for however long it takes, and waiting for
results to show without ceasing the effort.
If the scientist and visionaries gave up hope on the winds turning in favor, we
would not have had the greatest inventions and masterpieces in history.
Thomas Edison's teachers said he was "too stupid to
learn anything." He was fired from his first two jobs for being
"non-productive." As an inventor, Edison made 1,000 unsuccessful
attempts at inventing the light bulb. When a reporter asked, "How did it
feel to fail 1,000 times?" Edison replied, "I didn’t fail 1,000
times. The light bulb was an invention with 1,000 steps."
Albert Einstein did not speak until he was 4-years-old and
did not read until he was 7. His parents thought he was "sub-normal,"
and one of his teachers described him as "mentally slow, unsociable, and
adrift forever in foolish dreams."
Henry Ford failed and went broke five
times before he succeeded.
Louis Pasteur was only a mediocre pupil in undergraduate
studies and ranked 15th out of 22 students in chemistry.
Walt Disney was fired by a newspaper editor because
"he lacked imagination and had no good ideas." He went bankrupt
several times before he built Disneyland. In fact, the proposed park was
rejected by the city of Anaheim on the grounds that it would only attract
riffraff.
After
his first audition, Sidney Poitier
was told by the casting director, "Why don't
you stop wasting people's time and go out and become a dishwasher or
something?" It was at that moment, recalls Poitier, that he decided to
devote his life to acting.
Beethoven handled the violin awkwardly and preferred playing
his own compositions instead of improving his technique. His teacher called him
"hopeless as a composer." And, of course, you know that he wrote five
of his greatest symphonies while completely deaf.
Van Gogh sold only one painting during his life. This
didn't stop him from completing over 800 paintings.
After Carl Lewis won the
gold medal for the long jump in the 1996 Olympic games, he was asked to what he
attributed his longevity, having competed for almost 20 years. He said,
"Remembering that you have both wins and losses along the way. I don't
take either one too seriously."
These visionaries did not give up hope. They
saw the success in the unseen.
Faith is taking a leap into the unknown, gaining the
wisdom with each leap, to reveal the presence of something greater than human
conditioning and fears.
"Our greatest glory is not in never
falling but in rising every time we fall."
~ Confucius
Do not give up no matter what!
When you fall down, take a couple of breaths down
there, check out the landscape, rethink your strategy, get back up and have a
go at it again.
The next time you fall down, affirm:
Failure
teaches me courage and tenacity.
Success
teaches me gratitude and service.
Thank
you God for this. So Be It.
Neither failure nor success teaches the virtue of Truth,
which is an existing character that
helps us to succeed in life. How we
react to failure and success is the measure of our emotional maturity and not
the actual outcome itself.
Affirmations for Faith
I
take a lead into the Unknown
I
know nothing in the scheme of all creation
I
allow God to be revealed to me in God’s time
I
have the tenacity to not give up until I am one with God.
Thank
you God for this. So be it.
Surrendering My Will To God
I cruised through life creating every moment based
on what I carried in my conscious mind informed by the fears in my unconscious mind.
Once in a while, my unconscious would allow messages from my Higher Self to
seep into my conscious mind without any alterations. That is when I get my
epiphanies and opportunities that help to raise my frequency and overall state
of consciousness. Not once in those moments did I contemplate on surrendering
my will to God. That was a fearful job for me as it meant I had to hand over my
control to another and I did not trust the unknown Source. I understand why my
unconscious mind had this fear as I had a belief the universe was not safe. The
reflex action in manifesting desires touch an existing Neuro Pathway in the
brain which carried the message ‘THE
WORLD IS NOT SAFE!’ So the idea of surrendering to God, though I wanted it
consciously, did not appeal to my unconscious. So I held on to my free will and
created life from what ‘I’ knew best based on past experiences. I did not try
new experiences as that was unsafe, that had the probability of not turning out
to be in my favor. Little did I know my past failure were due to several
reasons, some of it was associated with my Soul desiring for me to master
virtues, and some had to do with self sabotaging due to existing Neuro Pathways
having the hardcoded message ‘NEW THINGS
DO NOT WORK – STAY OFF. DO NOT RISK!’
Alas,
how we delude our self and call it ‘discernment’!
When illusion masquerades as ‘Truth’ we need knee high boots to shovel the
garbage out of the way before the real truth can shine!
Then God decided to place me in the right places
in life so I can learn precious lessons so I can reduce the unconscious self sabotaging
of my happiness. So what did God do? Well, the Beloved allowed me to feel the
effects of my past actions and experience my fears fully by bringing me to a
state of homelessness due to lack of finance, fear for personal safety with daily
crank calls, separated from my 14 year old son and uprooted from one state to
another state to live with my brother with whom I did not have a close
relationship. I stayed with my brother so I can discover what being part of a
family unit and tribe meant, as my relationship with the world was estranged.
Fear of being hurt dominated that decision.
In this new environment, I got to know my East
Indian culture which I had walked away in anger 15 years back. I got to experience
the openness of receiving, laughter every day, and being enveloped in the love
from my brother and sister in law. They took my financial burden and started
paying my bills. Knowing I was living a healthy lifestyle, they bought me
Organic food even though they did not choose it for themselves. The home
suddenly had a water filtration system! They were devoted to keeping me
comfortable and happy.
I saw the romance, laughter, teasing, love, tenderness
between them that made me change my views about arranged marriages not working.
I realized the success of a marriage has
little to do with pre-arranged or not, it has more to do with the state of
consciousness of the 2 people, and how much they see the other partner in reverence.
This couple was not ‘spiritual’ and did not attend talks on relationships;
however they can be powerful teachers to many on the art of being flexible, being
obedient, considerate and loving each other. I was an eager student learning it
all.
Then God decided it was time for another
revelation. I had a certain health condition where my immune system needed
strengthening. My kidney, liver, heart, lymph, bones, muscles were some of the areas
impacted. Fatigue, fingers and toes ballooned up for 3 weeks and no amount of
herbal supplements worked. Even having raw veggie juices, raw soups did not
help. This was an invitation to get to
deepen my connection to God.
I was scared.
I finally did an ancient Ayurvedic treatment
called PanchKarma and I was introduced to the practitioner, a 62 year old wise
sage who was devoted to her karma (work) and a loving no-nonsense mother.
She saw what
I was not telling her and she started healing me on many levels. After 4 days
of treatment, the sadness in my heart broke the lock and flowed out as tears. I
called out to God in agony. The revelations given were powerful. I had the free will to discover life any way I
desired. I enjoyed some parts and suffered for most parts. Now something in me
was ready to say I SURRENDER! I
realized being an engineer and a high income from Day 1 of my career for 13
years did not keep homelessness away from my life. I had padded myself with security
and when the time came for challenges stemmed from past negative karma, there was
really no protection unless I had conscious collaboration with the Divine in
every step. Walking hand in hand with the Creator allows me to have a sense of
peace deep within, even when the problems exist. I
realized even though I am the doer, there is a GIVER and that is not me!
The person Maya was a very small aspect of it until I realize my God given
powers and embrace it grounded in truth and love. A the end of the meditation, God
responded “My
Way is the HIGH Way”
I cried and I rested.
We are all addicted to dysfunction to some degree. In my journey of releasing my “stuff” that prevents me from living an abundant and joyful life, I noticed there were some areas where I am a dysfunction addict.
For example,
~I love to sit in my sadness and not let go, until I realize that blaming the world for my past really does not help.
~I enjoy my bouts of anger at the Creator, until I realize what my part was in the creation of life’s drama!
~Once in a blue moon I love to indulge in mind blowing anxiety, until I realize I am trying to control something which is no longer in my domain.
So, why am I not letting go of all dysfunctions in record time, when I know it does not serve me?
This is because my conscious mind has not yet convinced the diverse aspects of the unconscious self to coorporate in the journey towards God and grand happiness. My self-mastery is still a work in process.
~My judgmental self loves to blame myself and the world. She would be jobless if she agreed to stop judgments! Maybe I can bless each judgment instead of getting entangled with it.
~My inner child has temper tantrums every so often, until my conscious mind reins her in with logic and love. Maybe I can re-parent her and let this aspect know that I am the one who has to take care of her and not the world.
~My employable self loses interest at working if I don’t have quick gains after reasonable effort. Then the re-parenting by the conscious mind on why instant gratification does not work helps to calm her down. The cincher is when I gently point to her the fact that our fears are preventing success from coming to us. Now, that is when she really becomes humble.
All my diverse selves are all finally cooperating in my desire to manifest happiness every moment by manifesting all my desires grounded in truth and in devotion to my Beloved Creator.
Maybe one day all the aspects within me will completely and undeniably bow to the divine presence within me. That day I will sing Halleluiah!
Until then, I will release each attachment to dysfunction with the same love and devotion a parent uses to coach a tiresome teen or a whiny ten year old!
Patience is mine! Humility is mine! Thank you God for this. So be it!